: : s h o c k e d : :

ya, itu yang pertama terjadi...
saat terima sms dan membacanya beberapa menit kemudian...
sangat shock...
dugaan dari dokter, terry mengidap kanker pada lambungnya...

she's crying sepanjang pembicaraan kita di telephone...
dia bilang kanker lebih ganas jika diderita pada usia muda...

she's my sister... and i love her so much, Lord...
i don't want to lose her so soon...
i want to see her as a bride someday...
and i want her to be in my wedding someday as well...

please Lord, please help her...
release her from all these burden...
how long does she has to suffer in this life?
in relationship, in love, in family... i think it's enough for her...

hari ini (december 27th, 2006)
terry memeriksakan diri ke dokter di RS. Advent...
dia harus dibius total...
sampai detik ini belum ada kabar lebih lanjut...
mungkin dia terlalu lemah... luar dalam...

konyolnya.. dokter yang meminta pasiennya datang pada jam 10.00
hingga jam 11.40 masih belum menampakkan dirinya sendiri...

sangat tidak profesional...

semoga terry baik-baik saja...
i'm so sorry sis, i don't spend much time with you...
i really want to, but i just can't...
too much work to do, all these responsibility of mine...

but deep in here, my prayer always be with you...
because i love you more than you know...

get well soon, sis...

: : christmas without you : :

back from bandung and arrived at the office at 00.15
it was raining all along the way, from the rest area to bandung 'til i went home...
been home at 1.00, had my late dinner after being 'kidnapped' at the store for one and quarter hours.

grab my phone, and start sms-ing her... just to let her know that i'm home, safe and sound..
it was pending... she must having a sleep then coz she's about to go abroad in the morning...

pray for her in my sleep, may God protect her along the flight...

8.30 something... check back my phone, the sms was delivered...
but no response...

10.00 waken up from my sleep, tried to call her.. but the phone was no longer online
she must be on the plane already...

now, it's 20.17... still no sms from her...

anyway i'm not expecting much... i just want to make sure that she's safe and sound there...what's so hard about it, just a sms to sent... just ONE sms... *sigh*

far hope... i'm nobody...
we'll see whether she remember all things i asked for her help to bought me or not...

tomorrow is christmas eve... and no one to share it to..
so this is christmas, my christmas without you...

couldn't wait 'til december 25th over...
couldn't wait to see her here soon...
couldn't wait to give her this little christmas gift...
couldn't wait to see that smile on her face...

missing you so badly.. even thou it's for 5 days only you left...
it feels like forever...

why couldn't i be someone special in your life?...